没有赶上明日方舟庆典,我卸载了社交媒体 I missed arknights fes, I quit social media.

最近尝试英文写作，若有不足，网友请高抬贵手。

LEARNING English performance recently, please leave if it bothered.

说回正题，我卸载了主流社媒，应该有了半年有余，并不是为了充实自己的生活，只是厌烦了互联网上的无聊噪音。

Back to the topic, started from half years ago or more, I uninstall mainsteam social medias, not for anything like completing my life for some reason I don't know, just for ending hateful noisies from internet. 

但是在昨天的写作时，我发现了某些影响我的事情。

昨日我开始书写我的自传，写到了我去年夏天赶往明日方舟的庆典，忘记了带身份证。

那一程，我安慰我自己，至少在上海找到了不错的教育资源，有功而返。

我看了看小红书上那些晒出自己游记的帖子，对自己说看到了帖子也就算是去过了，也没有多好玩。

第二天，我卸载了小红书app。

不多时，我卸载了手机端Bilibili app，保留iPad版。

然后的几个月之后，我在网页端上加载插件，屏蔽掉了网页端Bilibili和淘宝的所有推送。之后我上网，就一直限定在网页端。

最后，我把iPad端的Bilibiliapp一并卸载。

在今年的早些时间，我摆脱了AI幻觉，但是我还是保留了一个GPT的对话账号，把cookie记录留在平板和笔记本上。手机上则时不时使用Deepseek。

不过，你在我的账户中，找不到一个记录。我阅后即焚，查过的资料基本上都删除了。

就此，曾经的网瘾少年彻底断网了。或者说，流媒体互联网。

But when I do my writting yestoday, some memories flew out.

I started my autobiography, found that I ve been to Shanghai for arknights fes, but missed the fes for fogotten my ID card.

Somehow I suggested myself to focus at my resources I had found in Shanghai.

I took a look at xiaohongshu, which got a bunch of fes notes inside, looks happy, made me feel I was there. It is enough, I said to myselves, not so much fun as I wished, said myself to myself.

The second day, I uninstall xiaohongshu app.

Not for days, I deleted iPhone Bilibilii app, just kept iPad Bilibili app.

After months, I downloaded some plug-ins for banning netsite feeding in Taobao and Bilibili. Since then, I don't use iPad for Bilibili videos to much.

And final deleting of Bilibili on iPad at last happened.

I download them back sometimes, but I just can't join them.

In a little early time in this year, I came out from AI illutions. Still, I kept AI tools for mergency uses. By the way you can't find any records in my accounts, because I delete them immediately as I finish the mission.

So from then on, an internet-addicated boy had gone, at least gone from the stream-media network.

卸载流媒体软件的几个月内，我并未感到不够充实。但是当我走出AI幻觉，不再依靠AI时，我明显感到了空虚。

就像是一个老友被发现是一个大骗子，而他的优点就是很擅长行骗出口成章。顺带一提，那几个月内我接连识破了我所在的邪教组织和诈骗集团，并选择离开。我本以为这两件事没什么关联。

于是我的人生陷入一种无可论证的真实，和空虚。我发现我真正在做的事情，不过只有学英语而已。

可能要让你失望了，我并没有发疯地学英语，我反而压缩了我预期的英语学习时间。我知道我精力没那么多。

然后我实际的学习时间增多了。

我开始各种安排我的生活，期间我的空闲时间多得要命。以前我会直接睡过去，但现在我反而睡不着，反而习惯忙着，然而没有事情可忙。

毕竟没有办法欺骗自己"我很忙"，知道做什么是白费功夫，结果可以做的事情少得可怜。

于是，我剪短了头发，找到了工作，开始了写作。

我想，一定是因为我太无聊了。

Months after I quit stream social media, I didn't feel empty, untill I came out from AI illution.

Just like being with a friend who was very kindly, but found he's being kind by telling lies to ones they need. By the way I found myself in a frauding project, and another evil cultus group that time, and I quit as soon as I recognized.

So far, my style become too realism to be theorizable, follow by emptiness. I found the thing I was doing that was seriouly working, was only learning English.

It maybe disappointing you, that I didn't become mad in learning. Oppositely, I dropped my prospective english learning time in a reliable level for me.

And the time raised actually, in real world.

I planned my life as good as I could, period, my schedule had been really clean and "clean". The way I passed these "clean time" before was just sleep or somehow, but somehow I couldn't fall, into sleep, in that periods. I was getting used in a busy mind and in busy things, but there was nothing for me to become busy.

After all, I knew what doesn't really work and what do effort, so it did't last so much "works" to me.

So, I cut my hair from long hair to short hair, I found a part time job, I started writing.

Must because I was too bored.

我的堂哥和我说，要是找到一个志同道合的伙伴就好了，有百分之八九十的兴趣爱好是一样的。

我说，其实有个百分之三十就不错了吧。全部一样反而挺无聊的。

但是我听着像是，他想要被理解，想要被支持。

我何尝不是？只是我确实已经有足够的人支持了。但是展望未来，我依然觉得，自己还有许多不足，想要有一个信赖的人一起承担。

话又说到这里，我不觉得我会缺少这么一个人。

毕竟我已经知道什么是虚假的陪伴，什么是真心的朋友。

朋友也不可能全心全意为彼此付出，所以三分真心对我来说就足够。不过，流媒体互联网上那种看不到一丝真心的交流，还是算了吧。

我看见古典互联网向我招手。我还真是奇怪，这个年纪喜欢这些东西。

一定是因为我足够诚实，喜欢遇见诚实的人，诚实的互联网。

My cousin told me, he would like to imagine a friend, who is 90%  similar to each other.

I responded, maybe it is enough for about 30%? It is bored when two people are the same.

But it sounds like, he was seeking for understanding, and supporting.

Me too. Although I have got enough support and understanding, I still want a person who can support each other's shoulder in future. A one I can fully trust.

But I think there will be one.

I can tell who is really honest to me now.

Anyway, everybody has their own business, so it enough for me to keep 30% honest. Meanwhile, the relationship on stream social media internet, which I can't tell they are honest, is something to much for me.

I found I may like the "clssic internet", the internet which is more honest.